I learned at a very young age that my “dark day” mind had the power to create cancer in my body.
The day that the doctor told me and my mother that I had cancer, I knew why. I knew my “dark day” mind had created my cancer. I had been devastated for an entire year after my father‘s suicide. Heartbreakingly, toxically, devastated. It was too much for this fourteen year old girl to bear.
It was in that moment that I knew, with everything inside of me, that I needed to change my “dark day” mind into a beautiful one, if I was going to survive. But how?
I woke up from surgery with gratitude in my heart and mind, just to be alive. That was it!!!!… I specifically remember waking up with an abundance of GRATITUDE, “just to be alive!”
That was 36 years ago. That was my first round, of what would be two fights against ovarian cancer.
My second round of ovarian cancer came after the second event of devastation in my life. And just like that, I knew that my “dark day” mind had returned. Certainly not the validation I wanted about my theory that my “dark day” mind was creating cancer in my body… But here I was, once again, face-to-face with ovarian cancer… and my “dark day” mind!
I had fallen off my morning meditations. Not completely. However, my consistency was off. I was still practicing my meditation, but not in the same way I had been practicing during my fight to survive the cancer. I was allowing the stressful days to dictate my daily routines.
I knew what I had to do. So, I did just that!…I’ve been honoring myself, every morning for 36 years with my gratitude meditation. Every morning when I rise, I meditate for one hour as the sun rises. I don’t know what my life would be like now without meditation, but I know what it’s like WITH it. Mind, body, and soul, I am GRATEFUL to be alive!
Often, I am met with someone questioning my happiness. This is one of the most perplexing questions I get. I always suggest meditation to those inquiring minds, hoping they will tap into their own endless supply of Peace, LoVe and JOY, through meditation.
Meditation brings me peace. Therefore, my attitude can be a peaceful one during the MESSY curve balls that life throws at us throughout the day! That does not mean things do not “GET to ME”. They can. They do. They will. However, the messy days do not control my mind, or my daily attitude.
An attitude of gratitude wins the race, my friends.
I challenge you all to start a meditation practice. Start today, even if it’s for only ONE MINUTE. Just start. You have an endless supply of peace, LoVe and healing JOY just sitting there, waiting for you. It’s yours… Go GET IT!!!
LoVe & LiGhT,